Christmas Eve

So many feelings during the holidays. It’s a hard time for a lot of people and a joyful time for others. Tonight I am both. I went to my church’s kids program and it was so fun to see those kids sing and some to look like they wanted to crawl under a rock and one particular girl who just rules! I was taken back in time to all the Christmas programs my kids performed in (that they hated and loved at the same time). I loved those moments! Then I was driving home through my very small town thinking that I live in a Hallmark moment! I absolutely love where I live and I am so grateful for the many friends I have BUT I miss Chicago. I miss having Christmas time with my friends and eating really good pizza and drinking wine and hugs. This transition is so hard for me. While Mark just slid into country living like he was born to be here (which he sorta was, he grew up small town). i keep stumbling between country girl and city girl.

this is my first Christmas without any of my kids and it’s hard. I miss them. I miss my grandsons. I want MY family with me on Christmas. As my dad would say, “ Ages and Stages” and this is just another stage.

Thank you for listening! Have a very Merry Christmas! 🎄