I woke up in the middle of the night to let out the puppy and couldn’t go back to sleep. When he came back at 6:15 a.m. to let him out again I was up for the day and my emotions were all over the place. I hadn’t slept well, and my dreams were very vivid. I was sad, hopeless, weepy and just wanted to crawl back into bed, alone, with the door shut and close out the world. The feelings I have are like something inside me is clawing to get out. But I got up and scrolled through social media and put a post out on Facebook in a menopause group. My husband got up and made coffee and we read the paper and had some breakfast, but I was anxious and need to workout the emotions I was having. I find that a good workout helps with that, do it was a workout that I did. Sometimes, like this morning, I just then let loose and cry and all of the emotions come out.
I read through some of the posts on that Facebook group and it’s so good to know that I am not alone. They were also helpful pointing out some things I didn’t connect together like menopause = anxiety, exhaustion, panic attacks. One post pointed out that birth control controlled some of those symptoms. I happened to go off of birth control in February and in March I started to hit rock bottom. Time to chat with the doctor about getting back on birth control.
I headed out for the day with the hubby and got in a good, long walk at the Botanic Gardens and had a nice lunch. A little NASCAR to cap off the day!